If the Shoe Fits

 

Photo credit: Robsalot (that's me!)

I had arrived in the bay in the dark, which I loved, because when I woke up in the morning and saw the landscape for the first time as dawn broke it would be like arriving all over again. A light wind pushed my boat through the glassy water and safely into the anchorage, where I dropped the hook and settled down for the night.

The island was even more beautiful in the pink light of the morning than I could imagine. Velvet green mountains sprung out of the clear blue bay and reached for the cotton candy clouds that lazed about the sky. As I watched the sun start to peak out from behind the tallest mountain, I noticed a perfect white sand beach, dotted with coconut palms gently swaying in the morning breeze. That was my goal for the day.

I didn’t make it to the beach until after lunch. The morning had been spent putting the boat back together after the 23-day ocean voyage. Once I polished off the last of the peanut butter and jelly, I decided I deserved a break, and jumped in my dingy to row to shore.

As I dragged my little rowboat out of the surf and woman ran across the sand, asking if she could help. With her blonde hair and American accent, she did not appear to be one of the local Marquesans. While she helped me drag the boat up the beach, she told me about how she had just arrived the day before, by plane not boat, for a much-needed two-week vacation. Her name was Meredith, and she was from Chicago.

We spent the next two weeks exploring the island together. The time flew by, and before I knew it, we were walking down the beach together enjoying coffee and watching the world wake up on our island paradise on the last day before she would have to return to reality.

“What made you realize you wanted to live this life?” she asked.

I stared down at my feet for a moment, the sand squished up between my toes.

“Well,” I replied looking out toward the horizon, “when I was a kid, I rode horses. I used to spend summers working as a groom at this barn to earn enough money for riding lessons. One day I was holding this beautiful red roan mare for the farrier while he fit her for new shoes. He was trying to use horseshoeing as a metaphor for life, going on and on about ‘if the shoe fits’, and I realized, farriers don’t look for a shoe that fits the horse's hoof, they make the shoes fit. Wild horses, on the other hand, don’t wear shoes at all.”

I look down at my bare feet again, as the tongue of a warm ocean wave washed over them, “And that’s when I decided that’s what I needed to be.”

“Wild?” she asked.

“Yeah, wild,” I replied, “now, do you want to go for a sail?”

On A Dark Desert Highway

 

    Photo by John K Photo

It was the perfect end to the perfect day. We stood pressed together on the terrace, his arm wrapped around my shoulder, my hand wrapped around a nearly empty glass of champagne. It was cool out, after all it was February, but it never really got that cold on the Central Coast.

“I think this is the place,” I whispered, as we watched the sun set into the crashing waves of the Pacific Ocean, just beyond the bluff.

I turned and gazed into his hazel eyes, and he smiled at me. “Yes, I think we found it.”

“Sorry to disturb you folks,” a voice came from behind us, “but we are closing down the grand ballroom now. Please feel free to continue to enjoy your drinks at the fireside bar.”

I swallowed the last of my champagne and deposited the empty glass on a table as we made our way to the parking lot. Andy didn’t have a drink since he was driving.

We were just outside of Stockton, about halfway into our two our trip home, and I was being mesmerized by the cadence of the yellow lines passing in the headlights of our car. “Boy, that champagne made me sleepy, I’m glad I’m not driving.”

“Really?” Andy answered, “it was only half a glass.”

I shrugged, fully aware that he couldn’t see me in the dark car as he concentrated on the road ahead. “All that fresh salty air probably has something to do with it as well.”

A moment later I reached into the back seat and pulled out the bag of goodies we had collected at the Seascape Wedding Fair.

“Let’s see, so I think we found our florist, our photographer, our venue of course, and, oh!” I exclaimed as I shuffled through the brochures and business cards that filled the bag.

“What?”

“I cannot believe we forgot!!”

“WHAT?!?”

Smiling I pulled out a clamshell to-go container, “we still have to choose the bakery for our cake!” I popped open the top to reveal eight bite size squares of cake from two different bakeries. “what flavor do you want to try first?”

“Surprise me.”

I selected a white cake with some kind of pink jam filling (strawberry? raspberry?) and shoved it in his mouth. Then, after a moment of internal debate, I chose a chocolate piece and took a bite.

“Yum” I exclaimed after I licked the last bit of frosting off my fingers.

As I began contemplating the next piece I would try, Andy started quietly singing.

“Is that Hotel California?”

“Yeah,” he replied, I could hear the mischievous smile in his voice.

“Okay, but are you singing desert highway, or dessert highway?” I snickered.

“What do you think?” he answered, “Now give me another piece of cake!”

 

When the Fog Lifts

 

Photo credit: Robsalot (that's me!)

It was the strangest thing, somehow, against all odds, I had managed to end up at a place where I was actually happy. I wasn’t sure how it happened, but I decided it was best not to question it. For so long I had always been struggling against something, and to suddenly realize that life was finally coming together, and maybe I could actually relax. Not too much though, after all, there was still work to do, but it was work I enjoyed, so could it really be called work then?

I had lucked into the job, it was a whirlwind of events that had landed me right where I had always wanted to be, running a little inn in the countryside. I stood behind a big wooden front desk every day, with a view across the green rolling hills, and I would sip my coffee and just take it all in. This was the me I was meant to be. Not trapped in a big city, where it seemed the sun hardly ever managed to find its way through the maze of tall buildings to the street below. Where most of the hours of the day were spent trapped inside an office, disconnected from the rhythms of nature, instead trapped in the monotony of meaningless office politics.

Sure, it wasn’t all sunshine and roses being an inn keeper, though out in the country there were no tall buildings to block the sunshine, and obviously there were roses in the gardens that surrounded the inn, but there were problems too. Being in customer service isn’t always easy, there are a lot of quirky characters in the world, but there were a lot of strange people I had worked with in my last job too, the only difference was, the customers at the inn wanted to be there (for the most part) while the people in the office, not so much.

I had stayed up too late the night before. There had been a wedding at the inn, and I had been running around all night, making sure everything was just right. It was going to take a lot of coffee to get me through the day. I was on my third cup. Somehow I had made it through the morning check-out rush, and after I watched the last car turn from the long drive out on to county road 92, I decided to relax for a few minutes in one of the lobby chairs.

Well I must have fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew I was waking up, only I wasn’t in the blue and green plaid armchair in the lobby of the inn, I was in my bed, the one that was in my apartment in the city. I opened my eyes, and I saw her, my wife. That’s right, I was married. At that moment she woke up too, “Hi Bob,” she said, smiling.

“Oh Emily,” I replied, “I just had the strangest dream.”  

Stuffed to the Gills

 

Photo credit: Robsalot (that's me!)

The snow was a thick blanket that had dulled the sharp edges on the world outside her bedroom window. It was different then she thought it’d be, which surprised her. She expected dazzling white, sparkling in the morning sun, coating the world with fresh possibilities, but instead it was steel grey, a reflection of the dull clouds that perpetually hung low over the endless plains. She sighed and pulled the covers back over her head. It was Saturday morning, her first day off in a week and a half, and she needed to spend at least a few more hours of it asleep.

The phone rang, a presumptuously optimistic tune cutting through the quite of her apartment, just as she was about to fall back to sleep. She really hated the phone. When she first arrived in town she refused to get one. She was afraid he would somehow figure out her new number, and from there it would only be a matter of time before he found her. But eventually she realized it was impossible to live without a phone, to find jobs, to do a lot of things really, so she got one of those cheap phones they sell at the gas station, and registered it under her middle name and her maiden name. This made her feel safer, how could he know to look for the her she had become? But now the phone was ringing, and it was an unknown number. She didn’t answer.

A few more minutes tossing and turning and she gave up. It was no use, she wasn’t going to be able to fall back asleep. She rolled out of bed and that’s when she saw the phone flashing with a message. It was her boss, asking if she wanted to pick up an extra shift that day. “Why not” she said to the empty room. The hours of the day stretched out endlessly before her, she had to fill them with something.

The next thing that surprised her about the snow was how disgusting it was. It was a long walk from her apartment above the laundry mat on Main Street to the gas station at the edge of town. “Layers are key” she muttered to herself as she attempted to stuff her feet, and three pairs of socks into her brand new snow. Downstairs she found the street was sloppy with brown slush from salt and car tires. It would not be a magical walk to work in a winter wonderland.

The store had been empty for a half an hour. The police had set up a DUI checkpoint just down the street and all night the store had been packed with far too many sloppy staggering people drenched in the smell of rancid alcohol, desperate for carbs and black coffee. Finally, though, with only ten minutes left until closing and she was alone, standing in the back filling the mop bucket, when she thought she heard the bell above the front door jingle. She emerged from the back room to find him waiting at the register. As he looked up she noticed the expression on his face was exactly that of a person who had just seen a ghost.

“Anne?” he asked, his voice was small, like it was afraid of the sound of her name.

“Fuck,” she whispered, as she reached down to twirl the wedding ring on her finger. It was a nervous tic, she hadn’t worn the ring since the day she left him, six months ago.

 

 

Feeling Some Kind of Way

 

Photo credit: Robsalot (that's me!)

It would have been a surprise, if surprises were still a thing in the end. In the beginning there were still surprises, though, and surprise was exactly what everyone felt. It was a good emotion, the type of emotion one would expect upon realizing aliens were real, and had suddenly appeared en masse all around the world.

There was some debate who made the first discovery. Was it at an orange orchard in Florida? A sheep croft in Scotland? A rice paddy in Vietnam? It was impossible to know. One night the world was the same boring old world filled with the same boring old life forms that had always been, and the next morning the newspaper headlines screamed out the amazing discovery. Funny little egg-shaped creatures, with large iridescent eyes (were they their eyes? No one seemed to be quite sure, not even the scientists) and smoothly scaled skin mottled with indescribable colors that seemed to be derived from the stars, and webbed talons that they used to peddle their way through the air, as if they were swimming. The creatures could fly without wings.

Of course there was worry, and fear, and curiosity, and a whole litany of human emotions beyond the afore mentioned surprise. Peoples reactions to the news ran the gamut, and then back again. There were theories, and arguments, and conspiracies, and at least 17 new religions, and then there were corporations. It didn’t take long for people to figure out how to exploit the aliens. But the aliens didn’t appear to mind, in fact they look as if they enjoyed it.

You see, what the aliens seemed to love more than anything was being around people, and even though the people were scared at first, they soon grew fond of these weird little beings. Something funny happened when the aliens were nearby, people suddenly felt good. Not necessarily physically good, and not necessarily mentally good, but just good good. Poets, and writers, and musicians, and doctors, and scientists, they struggled to describe the feeling, and they failed. The real problem wasn’t describing the feeling, though, it was satiating the demand for it. This was a logistics problem really, the aliens appeared on the farms, and they needed to be distributed to the cities and towns and suburbs and everywhere else that the humans lived. Thankfully the corporations stepped up, and for a nominal fee, everyone was able to obtain their very own alien, and everyone was good.

Then one morning, as suddenly as they had arrived, they were gone. One night, the aliens were there, and the next morning, they weren’t. You would think the void would be immense, how would the humans react with all that good suddenly gone? Would they turn on each other, would they band together to try and find them? As it turned out, they did nothing at all, because they felt nothing at all. The aliens had not been exploited, they had been exploiting. They had been feeding off the human’s emotions, and when the emotions were sucked dry, the aliens moved on to find the next planet blaring feelings into space. But that morning, for the very first time, the sun rose over the earth and not a single person stopped to watch it.

The Neighs Have It

 

Photographer Unknown, 

from the personal collection of Roberta A. Robertson

The recording of the bugle played over the loudspeaker and my eyes flew open. It was morning, I rolled over and looked at my watch. Saturday morning. The summer was almost over, finally!

But first it was breakfast. I was alone again, just me and 40 other girls who had perfected the art of pretending I wasn’t there. And just like every other morning, I watched my eggs get cold while I waited for the morning prayer. This had been confusing at first, my parents were the type of Christians that went to the Christmas Eve Candlelight Service every year, and some years, when they were feeling especially pious, the Easter Sunrise Ceremony too. Still, I got used to the before meal prayers, the Christian songs around the campfire, the bible study, and the Sundays spent in church. I got used to being at summer camp with boys too. Every other camp I had gone to was girls only, but this one, well, it wasn’t as exciting as it seemed, the boys were in a different dorm, sat at a different table for meals, and took part in different camp sports and activities.

Well, the boys and girls were separated for almost all the activities. The only one we co-mingled in was horseback riding. It was the camp’s specialty, and the reason why I had gone here after aging out of my last horseback riding summer camp. Only, the horseback riding might as well have been segregated, because all the boys were automatically placed in the advanced class, and all the girls were automatically placed in the beginning class. So even though I had been taking horseback riding lessons since I was eight, I was stuck walking in slow circles on lazy pony that couldn’t even be bothered to flick the flies off his own haunches with his wispy tail.

Even though my roommate told me to stop being such a big crybaby and chose a different activity if I was so unhappy with horseback riding, I sucked it up, at least I got to be around horses. Now, though, it was almost over. First the camp horse show, and then my parents would take me home. I was warming up my horse in the ring, waiting for the advanced class to finish and the beginning class to begin, when a man in a bolero and cowboy hat ambled over to the gate and motioned for me.

“Young lady, what are you still doing in the warmup ring? Your class is about to start.”

“Oh no, I’m in the beginning class,” I stuttered.

“To hell you are, come with me.”

The look on the riding program leader’s face when I walked into the ring was only bested by the look on his face when I won the blue ribbon because the judges he brought in for the show didn’t get the memo that girls cannot ride better than the boys, actually made the whole crappy summer worthwhile. Okay, not really.

If It Quacks Like A Duck

Photo credit: Robsalot (that's me!)

 

There was a commotion in the far corner of our office suite. Whispers, steadily building in excitement, drifted through the rows of cubicles. Little snatches of conversation wafted across my desk, “I can’t believe they did this,” and “we have to do something”, and, “there hasn’t been water in there for months”. Just as I was about to get up and see what was going on the entire data entry team, half of member services, one of the accountants, and the CEOs EA rushed passed me with umbrellas, a mop, a broom, and several trashcans. I got up and followed the business casual mob as they hustled out the front door and made a beeline for the little park area that separated our office building from the one next to it. They were all crowded around what used to be a rather large, pond like fountain, but had been just an empty, fake rock lined hole in the grass since the drought of 2018.

The group was standing there, excitedly pointing at the hole while waving their chosen implements around. Kathy from accounting was lurking around the back of the group, trying to keep her heels from sinking into the wet grass, as I walked up to her and asked her what was going on. That was a mistake, Kathy was great with numbers, but words tended to compound exponentially when she was speaking..

“Oh, Roberta” she said, surprised to see me there, “well, you see, this morning Data Entry had their bi-weekly huddle, only Shari was running late, because of the rain. You see she doesn’t like to drive in the rain, so she gets her husband to drive her in, but her husband… oh wait, I’m getting off track, anyway, so by the time Shari got here everyone was already in the meeting . She went to her desk to drop off her umbrella and rain coat before going into the meeting, then she just happened to look up, and that’s when she saw them.”

“Saw what?” I asked, but Kathy didn’t get a chance to answer, because that is when I saw them, “OHMYGOSHBABYDUCKS!” I exclaimed.

“Yes, they're trapped in the pond, without water they have no way to get back out.” She replied as she shifted her feet to unstick herself from the grass again.

“Okay team, lets do this” the CEO’s EA exclaimed as my co-workers poured into the empty pond and began to heard six small, fuzzy little yellow poofs of quacky cuteness. Armed with our makeshift herding implements, one by one, we scooped up each duck in a trashcan and deposit them on the bank, close to their wary, worried mama. Finally, after about 20 minutes, we finished entertaining everyone who’s offices looked out on the park, and mama duck was hustling her ducklings to a nearby bush, we congratulated each other for a job well done and returned back to our desks. It was by far the best teambuilding exercise I’ve every participated in.